In a recent post, His Power is Made Perfect in Weakness, I shared with readers that the past few weeks have been hectic. I’ve found it hard to carve out time to devote to my studies and, frankly, I let my emotions get the better of me and used it as an excuse. Like then, I won’t go into the details of these events but it has brought me to a new perspective, and a timely bible verse, that I wanted to share on the blog.
Colossians 2:12-14 says
Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.
I’m not going to lie, I’ve been struggling a great deal with all aspects of this in my dealings with people as of late. My patience has run thin and I have been stressed and annoyed more than I want to admit. Some of the issues warranted a firm (but still kind and respectful) position but some others were minor grievances that warranted no reaction at all. The smaller issues were heaped onto more serious issues and I reacted to each and every situation, and person, as if they were worse than the previous….and my reactions were less than kind or respectful.
To this point, I have always been impatient and easily annoyed. It’s a weakness that I am fully aware of and have tried to work on in the past. I’d like to think that my anger isn’t nearly as explosive as it once was but my petty/minor annoyances are still something that I struggle with on a daily basis. These emotions are good for no one, myself included.
I was talking to God today, though it seems more like a vent session now that I’ve calmed down, and I asked the following rhetorical question, “is it too much to ask that people do their jobs and stop burdening me with their ineptitude?!” Long story short, several professionals have failed to provide their services as promised and it has caused me time and money in dealing with the aftermath. My time and money are in limited supply and having either of them messed with is generally the easiest way to peak my stress levels. I immediately went to peak and refused to accept any explanation. Nothing they said quelled my feelings about their businesses. They had failed, burdened me in the process, and I no longer trusted them. I lacked compassion. I lacked kindness. I lacked humility. I lacked gentleness. I lacked patience. I lacked…
And though I had asked Him a rhetorical question, He answered. These things were meant to show me my weakness, to remind me of the things I still need to work on. He placed these burdens on me to give me the opportunity to react in a more Christian way, to live as those made alive in Christ, and I failed just as He knew that I would. He also knew that I’d turn to Him and soon realize what I’d done wrong and what I need to do for the next round of burdens.
It didn’t seem so at the time but, His reminders were gentle and my impatience clouded my perspective; I see that now. For that I am thankful…